This is a desertion that I committed for many years to the point that I would not call anything other than it because of what I used to be reckless of, and we saw that it had countless blessings, and it is the one from which I learned to monitor myself, so I was a supervisor of myself on behalf of God when He commanded it to be according to a specific description known in the purified Sharia revealed to me. The tongue of the infallible, may God’s prayers and peace be upon him. I was observing the traces of my Lord in what He brought to my heart and in all my movements and rests. I was also observing my Lord by balancing His lawful punishment for His servants. I used to weigh the balance between His commands and prohibitions and His will to see the areas of disagreement from those who disobeyed and reconciliation from those who agreed, and nothing made me do that except what was gray. The Messenger of God, may God bless him and grant him peace, and what I have is nothing but his sa